But I get to come home to you .........................

THE POUT

Life is rough when you are four, and your mom tells you "no, we are not going to wal-mart today to buy angry birds for no reason at all"

Nerd up the nose........ really?

So as I was sitting folding laundry last night I hear a shriek of pure panic. I am met on my way into the living room by William, crying I have a nerd up my nose a real nerd up my nose. I am standing there prepared any minute for the "APRIL FOOLS" to be followed by this comment.
It never came. He did truly have a nerd stuffed up his nose... a pink one. I saw it for a brief moment and told him to blow. BAD BAD MOMMY choice blow hard means SNIFF to a 4 year old. Then the nerd was gone. No where to be scene. I contemplated a doctors visit. Then thought of sure we were headed to the ER. However after calming down for a few minutes, realizing he could breath easy. I realized it must of gotten sucked down into his throat and swallowed. He could no longer feel it in there and it was long gone. He has done this in the past with a small piece of plastic. He should of learned I know I know. =) However that one did warrant a doctor trip where they successfully removed it after 15 minutes of digging. This one however I was told was not as a big of a deal and would take care of itself. That boy. eeek.

However when asked what size it was he let me know that it was the smaller one because the larger one would not fit so he ate it........................ no comment.

HAPPY SPRING

Well April Fools day ended with a nerd up the nose of this cute little guy............. Of course who else would of done that.

Hard mommy moments

"I am not going to school today" Mason has casually said to me every day for the last week while eating his oatmeal.
"oh yeah?" I reply. Then it begins, the crying, whining, begging, pleading. Then Mason starts whining too. Then we start out battle of why he is going and all the reasons why he needs to which always ends in my having to break out the "It's the law Mase"
Putting your child on the bus while he is crying or if you can not succeed in the and have to drive them only to have the tears begin in the lobby and the clinging to your leg so tightly that you no longer have feeling in it. Its a very hard to thing to do. Leave your child crying and walk away. Mason has the best teacher ever and with out her I would not be able to get through what a hope is a phase.

words of wisdom found randomly.

"You never really get over a loss like that, you just get through it"


I wish I had heard these words years ago. For some reason they really mean something to me and really touch my heart. From our loss a few years ago to our most recent loss. These words now bring comfort to me. I guess I always was trying to figure out how to get over a hard loss and never seemed to be able to do that. However getting over it is not what is needed, getting through it and continuing to live is what you need do to. That is hard as well. Knowing that this will always sadden you when you think about the loss is okay. It's normal infact. Getting over it would be fake. Impossible to say the least. Instead continuing to live and try to make the best of things is better than trying to get over them. We do not want to "get over" a loss. We want to learn to cope with it, learn to function with it. Not get over it. Put one foot in front of the other, treasure the memories, try not to dwell in the sadness. Live but not forget. <3

March

To say this year has not been that great would be an understatment. We have had lots go wrong and every time I think I see the end of the tunnel the lights go out again.

I know its March in 2 days but man do I wish it was June in 2 days. I hate to wish time to go back quickly but I am more than ready for Summer. School to be out. Us to be moved in and out of the camper as we wish. Staying half the Summer at camp. Just the relaxation of being scheduless and care free for few months.

The kids had a snow day today which normally I love but at this point it only backs up what day they will get out of school for the year with each cancellation. When March is this near seeing signs of Spring would be great, however in MAINE that is not an option. However March does bring Spring to us. Well atleast according to the calender and I can only hope our Spring is much better then our winter has been.

I have not checked in often on here and have not updated because I felt like I had nothing positive to add and did not want to be a downer. However I am going to try to update weekly and find the postiive. There is positive in every day even if the negative seems to be over shadowing it at this time. So Friday will be March first and I am going to make it my personal goal to update weekly.