Hard mommy moments

"I am not going to school today" Mason has casually said to me every day for the last week while eating his oatmeal.
"oh yeah?" I reply. Then it begins, the crying, whining, begging, pleading. Then Mason starts whining too. Then we start out battle of why he is going and all the reasons why he needs to which always ends in my having to break out the "It's the law Mase"
Putting your child on the bus while he is crying or if you can not succeed in the and have to drive them only to have the tears begin in the lobby and the clinging to your leg so tightly that you no longer have feeling in it. Its a very hard to thing to do. Leave your child crying and walk away. Mason has the best teacher ever and with out her I would not be able to get through what a hope is a phase.

words of wisdom found randomly.

"You never really get over a loss like that, you just get through it"


I wish I had heard these words years ago. For some reason they really mean something to me and really touch my heart. From our loss a few years ago to our most recent loss. These words now bring comfort to me. I guess I always was trying to figure out how to get over a hard loss and never seemed to be able to do that. However getting over it is not what is needed, getting through it and continuing to live is what you need do to. That is hard as well. Knowing that this will always sadden you when you think about the loss is okay. It's normal infact. Getting over it would be fake. Impossible to say the least. Instead continuing to live and try to make the best of things is better than trying to get over them. We do not want to "get over" a loss. We want to learn to cope with it, learn to function with it. Not get over it. Put one foot in front of the other, treasure the memories, try not to dwell in the sadness. Live but not forget. <3